5 posts tagged “depression”
Today was essentially my boss's last day. There is a reception for him tomorrow, where I may see him for about 30 seconds, but that's pretty much it.
I am very sad that he is leaving, despite being happy for him. I respected him more than I realized, and have the utmost respect for him for continuing to push me even when I was already doing more than what was expected. He has a way of understanding how to push us to do our personal best, without pushing too far. I learned as much during the past 3 years as I learned in grad school, about graphic design and marketing and leadership, without realizing it was happening. He pissed me off sometimes, which just proves that he knew what he was doing.
But the reason this post is here is that I am able to be grieving without being completely comatose with depression. I feel like a new chapter of my life is starting, rather than the whole thing ending. I has been a really long time since I've felt this way. I almost feels better to be reasonably, normally sad than to be happy.
Show us a sign.
Submitted by the roo.
Here's two:
My sign made famous by John Oxton:
And one sent to me from Dan:
The meds got a major test today, and seem to be holding up. Hopefully this will continue through the next month, which will be hella stressful.
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What's the last thing you usually do or think about before you fall asleep?
I almost always read before I fall asleep. I jealsously guard that hour or so in bed with a book before calling it quits for the day. This is one of the main reasons that I like Vox as a platform-- it makes it really easy for me to add the books that I'm reading and comment on them.
Right now I am reading The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression by Andrew Solomon.
The last thing I think about ususally has to do with the book I'm reading, but if I have a major meeting or excursion happening the next day I will think about that. And if there was major drama that happened that day, sometimes I can't help going over that endlessly, and creating fantasy scenarios where I used my cutting wit to defeat my enemies and save the day.
